so, it is funny. when I killed my last blog, I was sure to never even think of returning to the sphere. You see, I can tend to be a complainer and I felt like the only time I ever posted on the blog was when something was driving me crazy. I don’t like to be a complainer and have worked very hard to separate necessary complaining from unnecessary complaining. Anyway…
…so, once the click of death happened, I had this moment of “aaaahhhhhh” followed by a short state of panic. “what have I done? now no one will really know what I am up to! what if I vanish?” then, I was ok. vanishing simply from not blogging is not bad vanishing. Because, as we all know, if a blog is the only thing keeping someone interested in me, it’s probably a fairly frivolous relationship. Anyway again…
I made some fairly normal “gen re-group yourself” goals after committing blog murder. Mostly, I focused on getting the negative attributes I had invited in, out. They were all very understandable things. Not feeling good about myself. Feeling like as a single mom I would never find that someone special. Feeling unattractive. Feeling like I was not able to provide well for me and my son, etc. Basicly feeling lonely and miserable. So, I just simply did a flip. I did some material things. Got my hair done, bought some new clothes. Things that would just pick me up and help me carry myself a bit taller. I started putting very small amounts of money away. It worked.
I did some community service on Christmas with a local group. Ralph, my boss (and friend) and I, went to take meals to the elderly who were in half-way houses. It proved to be fun and we had a good time just the two of us. which brings me to the best part…
…we had been talking about our shared love for all things sushi. Later that week, he suggested that we go get some. Definitely fun, but no biggie. Our families are good friends, and we have hung out before. So, he made the plans, picked me up and off we went… to a very fancy resturaunt. I thought “hmmmm. this is not what I was expecting, but this is great!” Honestly, I have had him lingering in the back of my head for 5 years. You know, the part of your brain that you store the things that “just won’t happen”? Well, that is where he has been. Or, should I say, that’s where he HAD been…
We ended up hanging out a couple more times, until it was completely obvious that we better talk about what ever the hell it was that we were doing. And it was mutual. Thoughts and feelings were shared and we came to the agreement that it would be rediculous to avoid the unavoidable. So, I have a boyfriend. Yes. the best one. One who came along and smashed all of those things I had been thinking about myself. And he is really into getting to know wesley. So, like it seems to happen…I think I have found the___.
Besides that, wesley started Daycare. I found this great place called “Little Angel’s Learning Academy” and it is amazing! So, life is on the up and up!
There is so much more to write. I have had a lot of interesting things happen. But, there is plenty of time for all of that…
