An open letter

Dear stress level,

Please, I don’t have a bit of time for you. So, if you could kindly disappear and leave me and everyone else on the planet alone, it would be greatly appreciated.

Thank you,

Genevieve

Faxing: a new olympic sport

who knew?

it is now 12:09 in the afternoon. I have been at work since 8:37am and have sent 28 faxes. This a new personal record. I have an office job. That means that i sit 90% of the day. Not on this day! I have made the journey to and from my desk 28 times. that is a grand total of 56 trecks through the office! This may have helped to cause a slight sprain to my right ankle. Though, the possible slight sprain is totally my clumsy fault and I will not be pushing for workers comp. Anyway.

I think tomorrow I may time my trips to the fax machine. It may be time to step the game up to a whole new level. I am estimating the total time for one successfull faxing trip would be about 45 seconds. Maybe I will shoot for 30!

 faxing is my joy and excitement.

In memory of Lucy Metro. My car.

I learned a very frustrating and expensive lesson today.

Check the oil in your car. Even if it isn’t time for your oil change. Because if you do not check your oil and it runs out, your car makes very painful noises and then dies a very quick death.

My oil light showed up about 2 weeks ago. My car has been ageing progressively faster in the last few months, and since I had gotten her an oil change about 2 1/2 months ago,(standard recommendation for oil changes is every 3 months or 3,000 mi, but that is very conservative) I figured it was just an electrical thing. I have NEVER seen this light show up before and have had the car for almost 4 years. We all know that lights in cars like to show up or vanish for no apparent reason. I was really close on cash and decided to try to get her in soon after my payday (yesterday) just to make sure she was alright. I had planned to take her in tomorrow for the oil change. Tomorrow morning. TOMORROW morning. I had a coupon and everything. But, as I was driving wesley to school on the freeway today, my car started to grown and make throw-up noises. I decided that I better get of the freeway, so i exited, and just as I turned into the gas station…..KA-PUT! she was done.

so, after $120 for 2 towing trips and $45 in assessment, I have learned that I should have not pushed her through waiting for my next payday and should have just borrowed the $30 dollars last week to get the stupid oil change.

I loved that car. she was very important to me. We really went through a lot together. I am going to miss Lucy very much.

Really, I don’t want to even think about it anymore. I feel like a big phat idiot-loser. for reeeeelz.

good.

so after a really hard few days, i finally feel better.

I woke up today to sun. It was supposed to be rain and thunder, so the sun was a welcome friend. My mom took wesley to school. that meant I got to sleep and extra hour. i got a ton of work done in the first 30 minutes of being at the office. that was a releif. Then, I got an americano, a new coffee cup, a danish and a pound of my favorite Starbucks seasonal blend “Pike Place Roast” delivered from my momma. THEN I got a text from my Ralph saying he was cooking me dinner tonight. man. that’s some good s#%T!

It just flat out feels good to feel special like that. That people are thinking of me and want to do sweet little somethings to make me smile. I am thankfull for that. and I am smiling. really huge.

So, happy wed. to all! I hope it has been as good of a day for you!

the deapths..the despair

I think a very hard part of life has presented its self to me. I think I have to get a second job.

man. horrible.

Yeah. Daycare has sucked all the finances right out of me. And I have really been very lucky so far with my single mom situation. But living space is small, money is non exsistent and bills keep coming. I don’t know what I am going to do.

I went to the Mo. Dept of Family Services yesterday to see if I could get any assistance. This was a pointless trip, for I knew already that i would be denied, but I went anyway. I was denied. Oh yeah. Because I make too much money for a 2 family household (by $200 a month). I asked if there were any other community outreach programs I could get in contact with. My case worker gave me a list of #’s and then looked at me blankly, stating that they all mostly follow the same income bracket guidelines and that I wouldn’t have much luck.

This is pretty rediculous. Now, mind you, I make a very average income. Nothing great. I mean, if I were single, I would still have to watch my budjet closely, but it is, I am now learning, virtually impossible to make it. It really makes me wonder….lots of things…and makes me angry.

I’m hangin’ tough!

This one is short and sweet.

NKOTB will be performing on the TODAY show on Friday, April 4th. AND they are going on tour!!!

 This pretty much makes me the happiest 12 year old trapped in a 29 year olds body, EVER.