The stars at night, are big and bright…

Oh, Texas. How fabulous you were!

I had the best 2 1/2 weeks! The best I think I have had in YEARS! Really. No exageration. I got to stay with Carrie, Brian and Jeff. Wesley got thrown around and wrasled with daily by big huge Texan men. He learned all about foot ball. He loved it. And I loved it equally. Brian and Wesley fell in love.

Carrie and I had a blast. We got crafty. Made a wedding wreath for her San Antonio wedding. (The official exchange of vows) went shopping. I bought an amazing pair of shoes. And Carrie bought lots of amazing clothes that I plan to steal when she moves up here.

I got to spend tiime with Anea and Issac, got to do all the decorations and got to witness their union.

I got to eat a lot of food. Good food. I gained a much needed 13 pounds. holler to that.

I got to hang out with Jeffrey a lot. He’s a great dude.

I got to see my god parents, Britt and Burl and my god brother Jordan.

I got to hang with some other NW’s and some Canadians. Basically, it was like a NW takeover in Pflugerville, TX. It was great.

Most importantly, I got to get away and get refreshed. As you all know, I seem to need dramatic change after dramatic change. It was perfect. My head is on straight. I can see things clearly and in a much healthier light. I am not angry or sad or hurt anymore. Just thankful for experiences and lessons. And those are the things to take with you. I threw all the bad stuff in a dumpster somewhere in Oklahoma. And no, I am not bi-polar as I was being told. I just wasn’t doing so hot emotionally. I wasn’t handling things in the right manner.

It has been hard coming back. The weather was perfect. Pretty close to 70 the whole time. And coming back to the cold has been a little hard. So, I think I am a sun person. Like the sun does wonders for me. And I have had to re-enter some aspects that I don’t like, but feel the true, healthy motivation to make changes. And I know that it won’t happen over night, and that’s ok.

And that is all for now. Go to my Facebook or myspace to see some pics!

yes Chrissy,

It’s time for a new post.

Oh, life. You are so interesting!

I have had a lot of changes take place. Lots of good and lots of hard things. But am working diligently on finding a balance.

I have decided to put off finding a job until January. I am just going to focus on getting through this term and most of the next, work on Carie’s wedding, go to Texas for Anea’s wedding, sleep, get refreshed, work on making some long term and short term goals, and try to network and make some new friends, work on establishing a new life for myself here, since the old life seems farther and farther away every day. That’s mostly a good thing, though there are still some pangs in my heart that I am now sure will never go away. But, as I learn to distance myself from it all, the pangs aren’t so frequent.

That’s all I can really say. Mostly everything is very personal and I am not willing to share them. But, life is going. It’s good.

Hope all is well with all of you!